I ate according to the plan except I had a extra miso soup before bed last night. Today was a strange day, I had no amount of "mind talk" going on today and I actually delayed alot of my eating times, not to test my man hood on starvation but quite simply because I was "at peace" with this whole detox thing and felt I had reached my "goals":
1) To Cleanse the system from the inside out
2) To break patterns that I was unaware of and explore them
3) To have fun doing it!
Now the first 30hrs wasn't much fun as I observed my mind talk "own" me, but since I "cracked it" or think I've cracked it, I have a strange "peaceful" feeling about it all.
This Peaceful feeling is a feeling of BEING NEUTRAL, I feel neutral towards my patterns. Which means I have NO ATTACHMENT to the "stuff" that surfaces. Real life e.g. When I eat my only "real meal" of brown rice & raw veggies, in that moment I'm at peace, I'm happy & grateful.
Who would of thought a "hard core" meat eater would actually get satisfaction out of a vegetarian diet, to the point that my partner and I are talking about having a meat free night, and subscribing days to particular foods! Will keep you updated on that one!
I was at peace so much I even contemplated stopping the Detox, simply because "I'm neutral" towards my stuff or most of it. In a round about way, this is what it's all about!!
Don't get me wrong there is still stuff that comes up e.g. I miss eating with my family, sure I eat with them but it doesn't feel the same. The other night they had rice and chicken, I'm not a rice fan normally but I was like it would be nice to eat the same as them and be a "part" of our family dinner.
So the question remains........
Will I stop the Detox? I don't know, a part of me says it's ok cause you are "neutral" and then another part of me says, "justification" for stopping.
What do you think?
Am I a failure?
Do I need to harden up?
If I stop the detox....
Or is it ok?
There's no right or wrong answer just your own thoughts, would be great to hear them!
Thanks for following,